Day Ten

Today is Day ten. I'm downt o 147. I had a run in with the weight loss because I was drinking the day break shakes. They just didn't work well with my weight loss. I wasn't lossing at the rate that was to be expected from Atkins. Well hopefully now that has changed! I have been keeping up with the insanity workouts. Six days on and one day off. Day seven was my down day and tonight I will workout again for the third day in a row.

Things are just getting better. I feel better. I look better. I wear my clothes better. I'm not pudging over the bands of my jeans or bras.


I hope pounds just start dropping now. I'm almost at 10 pounds. I'm almost at two weeks. I feel kinda stupid because I didn't realize the atkins things were keeping me from losing at the rate I wanted to lose.

I wanted to hit 15 pounds in the first week but it seems that I won't hit it. Unless I can magically whip 10 pounds out in a week. But I can in the next two weeks, so by day 25 I should have almost 20 pounds lost. I have 7 pounds down. 13 more to go. Then...10 more pounds until I am at a goal weight. I hope I can meet that. I really hope I can.

Day Five

I've stuck to the diet today. It's a rough day. Not diet wise. I just want to work out but I had a very rough day and I am running into that pit where I just don't want to get up and do anything. I guess I'll force myself through this.

I'm also noticing I haven't really eaten anything today. I need to get on that. But I have stuck to low carb. I'm listening to music trying to pump myself up. It's just half an hour. It's just half an hour... (It's actually longer because I think I want to add in the abs but I'm trying to trick myself).

I think it's so odd because right now I am trying to talk myself into starting, but I guess it's like once I start, nI will just start moving forward. But I had my feet crossed while writing this so I need to wait until the feeling is normalized in my left leg! OH MY it's nuts right now.

I weigh 150 right now. Hopefully tomorrow there will be more of a dip in the scale. I'm starting to face the problems that are assosiated with high protien diets. Hopefully that'll chagen shortly.

Heather

Day Four

So first- it's beautiful outside today. It started out raining this morning, cold and miserable. As soon as I sat down to write this the sun came out, so I'm taking that as a good sign.

Today is day four of insanity and atkins. I have been sticking to it, although it's been very difficult before, today isn't so bad. I feel like I have a great grasp on things today. I did not work out last night, but I did this morning. My calves were in so much pain from the work outs. So I took some advil and pushed it out this morning and I am so glad I did. I'm at work now but I am looking forward to the Abs and Arms I'm going to do tonight. Tomorrow is day five... that is exciting. I don't think that I have successfully gone five days on either of the plans without having some sort of relapse period.

I've lost 1 pound since yesterday. I really hope that more will start to fall off soon. That's what I hear, that pretty soon it's just going to start shedding. I hope I see a difference in the scale tomorrow. I don't want to get discouraged and fall off of this.

Tomorrow is day five of both... I'm going ot kill it. I am hoping there is a huge difference. I have not done both diet and exercise paired like this in awhile. My body might just be in shock. I am in Ketosis...

I am 153 today. Tomorrow will be much better. :)

Day Three

I didn't start this on day one for a reason, I didn't want to focus on being whiny and weak when I look back at this. Today is day three of both Atkins and insanity. Although I'm also on day three of my time of the month, which I believe has impeded my weight loss and also attributed to the whining two days ago; I am strong today. I wake up in the morning and do a video. I go to work and about twelve hours later go back to the gym, meanwhile counting my carbs and keeping them as low as humanly possible without sacrificing vegetables. Today is day three... Three incredibly successful days of not cheating or being negative or talking myself out of a work out I deserve, or talking myself into a portion of food I don't need.

This is huge for me because I am an addict of food. When I'm sad, I eat, when I'm mad, I eat, stressed, happy, sleepy and active, I always seem to be eating. The only exception to this is when something is so out of my control, I start restricting or purging. I'm not a thin girl. To be completely honest I am 5'7" and usually weigh about 144-151. I'm not fat, but I'm not thin either. I'm slightly above average which is wildly above being comfortable.

I used to run. Even when injured running was my addiction. Not for long periods of time but just enough to raise my endorphins and feel awesome. Now I can't run without fighting a mental battle with myself on a regular basis.

So there are my problems- here are my goals:
1) to not depend on food to make my days better
2) to enjoy every meal- and not panic due to poor choices and fat content.
3) to trust myself to make the right choices every time- to include portion control and limit over indulgence.
4) to give my body the work out it deserves.
5) not to limit my physical activities due to any fear (other than death)
6) to be the weight, size, shape and tone I have worked to be at, therefore I deserve to be at.
7) to kick my ass and earn my sleep and days off.
8) to finally be proud of myself for everything. Not just work- but working out.

So I'd like be healthier, smaller, and happier. I'm blogging on how I'm getting there so that if I ever get lost, I have a road map here on where I went wrong.

Today- I started out at 154.4. Tomorrow I hope to report a lower number.

Heather